haiz!!

,.so yun!! hahahah ngaun lang ulit ako nakapag nettt ahmpf!!!!!! ahhahaah nakakatamad kasii eh,.

maxado maraming nangyari.hmm di ko pa makwento hahah kasi yung iba wala lang tas nakakatamaaaaadd,,haha yun yon ehh.well,well,well, madami akong bagay at mga taong dapat kalimutan at dapat bigyang pansin,.

basta no comment na lang muna, tinatamad na ko mag type eh oh, it's vacation na,and it's kinda dull,hahah so buhbye for a while till hir!

'xoxo
xtiiiiiiiine

okayyyy.

,.ito nanaman akoo,,ok ok ok,ayoko na talagaa,kanina ang daming nakakapansin kung okay ba ko oh hindi.pag cnabe ko namang oo hindi naman kayo maniniwala,tas pag sinabi kong hindi,aalamin nio pa kung bqt,db db db,puro oo naLng ako,hindi ko na kasi alam gagawin ko,puteeekk,lagi na lang ako magisa sa isang sulok,yeah,mas gusto ko yun,please,gusto ko na tLga mamatay,promise,para isang "WOOSH" lang waLa na lahat,kung pwede nga lang eh,marami akong dahilan kung bakit ako nagkakaganito,lagi na lang akong nag a-act na prang everything was fine,pero kung alam niyo lang db,ayokong i-open sa kahit kanino tong mga to,may mga tao lang na napagsasabihan ko pero di pa rin sapat.,

ano ba,pagod na ko ha,ayokong pumasok bukas.let's see..lagi na lang akong umiiyak. totoo.haizz talaga.ano bang nangyayari sakin,marami diN nagsasabi na nagbago ako,tssk, kaninang umaga umiyak ako,pero walang nakakita sakin,tapos kaninang hapon lang nung uwian umiyak nannaman ako,si monica lang nakakita sakin,tas tuwing naaalala ko yung kagabi,wala sira na araw ko,kahit tumitig lang ako sa salamin,naranasan mo na ba yung titingin ka sa salamin,tapos ngingiti ka na prng wala kang problema,tas habang nakangiti ka,may mga luhang dumadaloy?yeahh,maski kanina,ayoko muna makita sarili ko,kasi nasasaktan ako tuwing nakikita ko yung mga mata at ngiti ko,kasi alam ko na pag nakikita ko yung ngiti ko,alam kong pagkukunwari lang yun,pag nakikta ko naman mata ko,nakikita ko yung katotohanan,.

,.tas sa taong pinagtanungan ko,wag mong damdamin yung tanong kong yun,dahil para sayo rin yun,wag mong isipin na kaya ko tinanong yon eh dahil hindi kita pinagkakatiwalaan,kung nasaktan ka,mas nasaktan ako,hindi naman kita iiyakan kung hindi kasakit sakit yun db? magicp ka nga. LOL,.

,."gumagawa ka nanaman ng palabas" please lang,pasayahin mo xa,para sakin,kung alam mo lang na minahal ka na nia,pag nasaktan xa,nasasaktan din ako,i know her,minsan nag jo-joke time ako,pero wala lang yun,makulit lang tLaga ako,cge na naman oh,please,.

,.nagbabago na ba ko? unti unti? haizz ewan,,ginagawa ko na rin yung mga bagay na hindi ko kinasanayan,yaH,natutulog na ko ng maaga,nagc-commute na ko,mas tahimik na ko tas lagi pa kong malungkot,yeah i know di yung big deaL,pero wala eh,nagbago na,nagbago na enviroment ko dN,di na ko sanay sa mga taong nakapaligid sakin,hindi ko alam kung totoo sila oh mga hangin lang eh.,

hanggang dito lang muna..

paalam.

xoxo

xtiiiiiiine

:(

,.nalulungkot ako,malungkot na malungkot,hindi ako sanay sa ganito,ayoko ng surroundings,napaka daming tao na ang nagbabago,marami na,at napakalaking impluwenxa din nun,gusto kong umiyak,ano? ganito na lang ba lagi? puro plastican na lng ba? ano ba? maraming nahihirapan,maraming nasisira at higit sa lahat maraming nagkakagulo,sana naman naiisip nio rn o napapansin yung mga bagay na yun,god,ayokong umiyak,please,marami na rin akong na mi miss.marami na,matatapos na nga lang yung school year eh,tapos nagkakaguluhan pa, talaga bang nasanay na kayo sa ganito? oi ano ba? ayaw nio nang pagbabago? ha? sana naman kahit minsan pagbigyan natin yung isa' isa, at mamimiss ko kayo nuh,dbvah nga di pa ko sure next S.Y kung jan pa ko? db db. haizz.mahirap balikan yung mga dati kasi,Lahat tayo may mga pagkakamali,lahat tayo may mga kasalanang nagawa,lahat tayo may negative side,pero sana lahat din tayo may LIMITATION,ayun Lang yung gusto na lahat para may peace..

:'( sobrang lungkot ko,pinipigilan ko lang yung mga luha na lumabas,help mee,napaka daming gumugulo sakin,madami,madaming madami,kung pwede lang wakasan n lahat,P.I , nagsisisi ako. sana umpisa pa lang tumino na ko,sana umpisa pa lang hindi nagkakaubusan ng mga pasensya,wag niyo naman akong pahirapan,alam kong hindi lang ako yung nahihirapan,marami,at sana maintindihan naLng natin cla,at lahat,.

yun lang.. :'\ //depressed

xoxo

xtiiiiiiiiine

(: -_- :)

,.haha it's around 11:45 pm na..welL,di pa ko inaantok kasi ehh. ampf,haha,waLa kasi akong magawaaaaaaaaa hahaa tas super boring pa,hahaha,waLa n Rin akong katext,hahaha wLa na Lahat! hahahhah! paRteeyy.,

,.hai,hai,sumusumpong nanaman tong allergy kooooooooooooooo>.< taLagang di ako makakatulog lecheeeeeee hahaha,tas maya maya another day nanaman,which means may pasok na tomorrow,another suffering boring day,hahah wag na kayong pumasoooook hhahaha LOL.,

,.LOL,mukha akong ewannnnnnnnnn HMMMMP! ano ba?! bastaa,-_- ewan ko sayoo hahahha,welL ganon taLaga haha,hmmm di ko nakwento nangyare kahapon hahaha saya saya,im with HG alL day. :) untiL near tweLve am, haha,mamimiss kita !!! ahaha!! kataqt nangyari sa office nuh?! hahahha!! weeeeeh,wala na ko maxabe yan na! cge cge!! buhbye!! hahaha!!,.

xoxo
xtiiiiine

,. >:\ ..

I HATE/LOVE THIS DAY!

thanks to HG.

and ----------- to you.

FUCK?

.......-_-...........

wiii. pumasok na si Hg! ahahahha.. :)

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bye!

...........@10:56...

,.hey,you,:'( fuck it.,why am i always thinking of you? i miss you so much.i hope you know who you are,you're not doing the things that im used to. and i want to tell you how sorry i am,it's true that the blame was always in the end,.

when we were still girls,we used to hung a lot,in school,our house,malls and in school bus.,we promise each other that our friendship will last forever, we even call each other "BESTFRIEND"
,when i need a hand and a shoulder,you're always there,and of course me too.then one of us transfer to another school which a bridge for us to miss each other badly.

February 14,2009 :

you went to my house,just to give me a gift and a letter,and this is remarkable,:)

im always asking you to be with me.to transfer school so we will be together,then one day you did what i told you to.

FIRST DAY OF CLASS:JUNE 8,2009

ABSENT! then you surprised me,you go to our house wearing PWU uniform,just to ask why didn't i come to school,.

then time passed by,i was so stupid,so very stupid,i didn't notice bit by bit i was leaving you in the air. .that's not my intention,but i know that it's my fault,it's mine,im sorry,im very sorry,i miss you so much,please reply to my messages.i have no news about you.

and im sorry im being corny here, i just need ahm uh,nevermind, well. im really hoping to kill you,IM GOING TO KILL YOU IF YOU ARE HERE!!GRRRRRRRRR! what did you do to yourself?! you're not like that before! i mean you're great but,you're vice,.you have to regret that huh! hahaha if you just want to, :) welL i understand if you lose your trust to me,but i would never dare to lose my trust to you,.

"*there are moments in life when you miss someone so much..
that you just want to pick them from your mind and hug them for real*"


xoxo.