Hay. I don't know, I don't know what to think and what to believe anymore.
Do i deserve this kind of treatment? I'm so confused. I'm your girlfriend for fuck's sake. I deserve to know thing
And also I deserve your respect, it's okay to say silly things sometimes, but when it's too much, think about the person who is attached to you. Just because your there doesn't mean you can entartain some people, the other side of me says that what i've read is nothing, but a part of me also says "Just trust" haha so I have "Trust issues" now?
I told her before that i can handle every problem as long as it doesn't involve a another person in our relationship.
But sometimes you give me the wrong hint, i dont know if its wrong or right, why? Cause' you dont open up!! Whenever were having a fight all you do is to play hard, we dont even have a chance to talk about it, you didn't even bother to ask me why I'm acting like this or that. Haaaay It's just so heavy.. I feel heavy everyday. I'm affected because I care. And because I love you. Things are hard because were in long distance relationship, and were making it even harded, how about some understanding? How about some care? How about some behavement? All I'm asking for is for you to be open. For you to be tough. I am hurting.. Every night I cry because I miss you. You don't know how hard it is to wait and be patience, you have no idea what i am going through with you acting like that. :(
